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july 13th, 2025
it's been about a month since my visit to my partner - it was literally the happiest week of my entire life (as was it hers) and was absolutely life-changing. i will cherish the memories we built together for the rest of my life. it was incredibly difficult parting ways at the airport at the end, but it also positioned me in an entirely new way in my life: it became abundantly clear partway through the trip that i need to stay close by this girl's side from here on out - and i decided i'm going to move from minnesota to washington to be with her.

her and her other partner, my nesting partners, and i are already planning the move. within a year i won't be long-distance from her anymore, and i will be so much happier for it. i've never wanted anything so badly in my life, i've never had my needs met in all the ways she meets them, and i also haven't been this assured about a life decision since my transition. and even aside from the relationship, i want a fresh start somewhere other than where i've been living to bring in this next era, and this is the perfect opportunity for that too.

i'm also approaching a place in my healing journey where i can start adding things back to my life... and so i've been looking for work to help support my new life ambitions and restart my career. i'm not sure if i'll be able to sustain it and manage my health, but i'm going to try my absolute best and keep my hope about me.

this era has been full of joy and excitement and inspiration, and i am so grateful for it. things are really looking up, i know myself better than i ever have, and i'm thrilled to have the life that i do and to be the woman i am. after so many dark and painful chapters, the clouds have finally parted, the sun is beaming down on my face, and i can't wait for the rest of my journey to unfold with all of the amazing folks around me.

until next time! :3

-eri

june 10th, 2025
welcome to my site! this is my first entry here to talk about... life, i guess? i usually post updates on fedi directly, but i'll try linking to posts here and see how i feel about it. i made this site to partake in the whole webring phenomenon that seems so common in queer circles. i really like how expressive a lot of these "old internet" style sites are, and so onto the bandwagon i've hopped. :D

let's see, what's new... i'm the best as i've ever been mental health-wise. after some big breakthroughs in therapy, my life is expanding outward again, and new experiences feel more within reach. i still have a long way to go, but i'm so grateful to be where i am, and it gives me a lot of hope for the future.

the biggest life update i have otherwise relates to a wonderful woman i met who's fundamentally changed my life. i wasn't looking for a relationship and yet she fell out of the sky and here i am asking "what is my life?" on a daily basis out of joy. she's really a dream come true, and i'm so honored to be her life partner. here's to the rest of our lives, my beloved.

i'm planning to visit her halfway across the country very soon, and i honestly can't remember the last time i was this excited for anything. i'm so very much looking forward to all of the adventures we're sure to go on together.

i think i'll end this little entry here for now. see y'all around!

-eri